Unfortunately, I often define myself, not only by my past sins, but also by my past wounds and successes. Sometimes the failures of my past shape my identity and I see myself as a pervert, a narcissist, a liar, a Pharisee or a gossip. The enemy loves it when I drag my failures forward, and he’s all too willing to add his two cents to the discussion. He’s also happy when I look at my successes to define myself. He is a major proponent of the “I am what I do and how well I do it” philosophy. Allow a success or two- even in the area of victory over sin- to happen, and it’s not long before I’m seeing myself as an excellent counselor, a gifted singer, an anointed preacher or a clever IT guy. All or none of these things may be true, but they NEVER define me! What I do is NOT who I am! When my wounds, hurts and losses rise up to become a theme in my thinking, I can fall into the pattern of believing that I am defined by them- I am a victim. I am detestable to others. I’m not a real man. Blah, blah, blah! Again, I am not defined by the wounds of my past! They are a historical fact, but they don’t say a thing about who I am!
To find my identity, you have to look at whose I am. I belong to God. He is my creator and my Father. I am His precious son. I have been brought out of death into life, out of darkness into light. He has given me the righteousness of Jesus. He has “removed” my sins from me and has raised me to walk in newness of LIFE. This is the supreme reality of my life and the source of my identity.
I must continually remind myself where Identity comes from and what Papa says of me. The key to believing this truth is hearing it from Him over and over again. As I know and love Him, I become more and more convinced of His love. He shapes my will, aligning it with His own and empowers me with the very life of Jesus to do that will!